It took a quarter century, but the day finally arrived January 7th, 2019. I can for sure say I'm not the same person I was a year ago, and honestly, I'm glad with the changes I've made to myself, and changes in my life.
This previous year, I had tasked myself with becoming more spontaneous and taking more chances, LIVE A LITTLE! Which for someone that prefers to stay at home on the weekends or go to bed early, was quite a challenge for me.
However, I'm accomplished a lot!
- I spent 3 months outside of my origin country
- I started learning a new language
- I took the risk and jumped onto an opportunity to grow in my work place
- I learned the difference between disappointing others versus disappointing myself (and which one was more important at the end of the day)
- I fell in love with writing again during the slowest moments of my life this year
- I finally got my first tattoo which represents my passions
- I cut my hair short after many years of letting it grow out
- I went on a silent retreat for 3 days to find inner peace
- I managed to apply said experiences soon after and seem to re-balance my inner-self
And these don't include any smaller accomplishments I've done and probably forgot to mention along the way. Now that I've entered my 25th year, there is still so much I want to do, say, and explore outside and within myself. My bucket list only grows with every passing day, simply because there are just too many amazing things out there worth trying, at least once!
I want to keep saying yes to more opportunities. Even on my birthday; I went to a Japanese restaurant with my family and I tried true sushi for the first time... and honestly it wasn't that bad! I've always been afraid to try it, or grossed out at the idea of eating raw fish, but I really don't want to allow my fears control aspects of my life that are truly unknown and all speculation. I want to at least try something and then form an opinion before just assuming I won't enjoy it. Of course this doesn't only apply to food, but activities, actions, and perhaps even more that I will just have to experience to know about.
I'm honored to be surrounded by people I love, that support me and cheer me on, and even jump in on my adventures to experience things for themselves. There's something wonderful about trying new things with others. The world could be a very lonely place, but only if you chose for it to be that way.
I will continue to update you all on any new things I try or do. I'll also keep working on those bucket list ideas that I posted last year as well as add new ones mid-way this year. I promise I'll become consistent once again with my website by any means necessary. I will no longer allow my job, people, or outside forces, step between me and my writing again. I noticed that when I stopped posting, it was around the same time that I began to lose myself in darkness. Even if my writings are just for myself.
Please find your passions and harness them, feed off them and stay wrapped in them. Love is the only light that can fight back all the negativity that disguises itself as a friend or a better choice. True happiness comes from within, not external causes.
Happy birthday to me, and my birthday wish this year, between you and me, is for everyone I know, (and even those I don't), find their own inner peace this year.
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